A roundabout is like a vicious cycle: At what point do you get off??

 Today I was driving to my dentist and found myself in two roundabouts and thought, this is much like my relationship with food.  At what point will I get off of this so called “roundabout” with my food allergies and take back control?  I mean, I’m a strong person and I’ve done it before with dairy, eggs, and black beans.  What is so different this time?  When I gave up dairy I thought it was the end of the world and I literally cried for two weeks every time I ate.  Excessive?  Yes, I know just ask my husband how he lived with me.  

Lately, I have noticed my relationship with food and how what I put in my mouth affects everything about me.  While flirting with a vegan lifestyle I began to notice that I didn’t need naps, my daily headache gone, and my inner fat kid had finally given up.  After my hives outbreak in December I gave up on my Dr. and his rotational diet.  This led to me snacking on things I was allergic to and I quickly became sick again.  I needed naps constantly, woke up with swollen eyes every morning, stomach aches and headaches were a daily occurrence.  How did I get back here??  After months of happy go lucky I let 5 days of hives freak me out and ruin a good thing.  

After 3 days of being sick I have decided that enough is enough.  I found a new Dr. about a month ago and have had amazing progress.  He has made me keep a journal of everything I have eaten for the last month and this has really opened my eyes.  Those thoughts of “I can eat this today and start over tomorrow” turned in to an everyday thing.  I have managed to keep my “cheat day” to once a week and even that is keeping me sick.  My Dr. said, “I’m not here to make you follow a diet because I would be setting you up to fail.  When you are ready to give up the foods that make you sick you will on your own terms”.  So in order to keep me in check I have decided to start a blog to do just that.  I am preparing to go gluten, wheat, corn, rice, and dairy free for 30 days.  Those are the things I am most allergic to and need to cut out.  I know it’s not going to be easy but when I make it at least I can look back at where I have come from.  And when I’m tempted to cheat I will be reminded of how sick I am feeling today.

Once again I gave into my inner fat kid and I ate my “last meal” cheeseburger and french fries.  Tomorrow I am starting over with a clean slate and will begin day 1 of my new life style.  Please check back each day to see how I am doing and what things I struggle with in my journey to better health.